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Progress: first draft of introduction sent to supervisor, who will doubtless be underwhelmed by it, but whatever. And: I have sorted through chapter 2, rearranged everything to be in I-think-the-right-place, learned some more Stuff about wrangling formatting in LibreOffice, and Made A List of what still needs to happen to it.
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... was on Tuesday, I think, but didn't quite make it as far as the patio; I finally managed to get the fig and the bay into their hats and scarves yesterday. Tomorrow's jobs include "wrapping up their feet" and also, probably, "bringing the lemon home from the allotment because I can't reasonably expect it to survive in the greenhouse over winter, I don't think, even with the hotbin".

The year turns.
kaberett: a watercolour painting of an oak leaf floating on calm water (leaf-on-water)
  • The equinox has passed, and I'm now spending most of my waking hours in slipper socks again, as well as some of my napping ones. Warm feet yes.
  • A spent a bunch of Wednesday-I-think evening Fiddling Around With Electronics, and now we have a bluetooth speaker that can be hooked up to the bat detector such that the latter can be left outside the other side of a closed door leaving the former to Chitter at us when we should be looking outside for BAT. It turns out they are active much later than we'd quite realised, being as they're quite difficult to actually spot once it's actually dark.
  • Supervisor meeting today a combination of cheerful and useful. I have managed over the past week to actually work out what I'm trying to say with these last two chapters, or at least what topics I'm trying to address, and while I'm still shuffling sections around I'm mostly managing to remember that all the thinking I'm doing about it is useful thinking, and the back-and-forth is in fact progress even if it doesn't look like much.
  • A Made A Request yesterday for Quiche Dinner, which I never get around to making just-for-myself, which meant that since I was making pastry I had Might As Well make enough to make a dessert pie as well, which means that for the past two nights we've had cheese-(allotment)tomato-(allotment)onion quiche, served with boiled potatoes and parsley (tastes like home) and, variously, more Cosse Violette and more roasted cherry tomatoes; with apple-and-(allotment)jostaberry pie with optional home-made vanilla ice cream for dessert.
  • I bought a pot of Supermarket Basil in the last-but-one (or was it the one before that?) grocery order; I soaked it in water, separated the plants out, and dumped them in a trough with some more space and a lot of (home-made!) compost. They appear to have mostly survived and taken, and I am crossing my fingers for managing to keep this batch alive a little longer than I usually do.
kaberett: A green origami stegosaurus (origami stegosaurus)
Some time ago -- I can't remember if it was 2019, or whether it went back as far as 2018 -- I made, in my scratchpad, the following list.

Read more... )

Usually, for my birthday, Adam and I go to Vanilla Black; that's clearly not happening this year, and nor is either the party I'd began tentatively planning (in a rendered-habitable mouldering ancestral pile, post-PhD draft) or the obvious fallback (afternoon tea at home with guests, with the excuse to bake lots of bits of treats and snacks, which we'd never ordinarily eat up in time otherwise, and the PhD nowhere near hand-in yet).

For Some Reason, this year I'm feeling a bit adrift. Read more... )
kaberett: Sherlock Holmes and Joan Watson sit side by side, facing forward, heads slightly tilted towards each other. (elementary-faces)
Today, my mother posted me a package containing some onion sets and some seed Charlotte potatoes and -- probably -- some other bits and bobs.

Today, I put together a package for my mother containing caraway seeds, and poppy seeds, and sesame seeds, and sunflower seeds, and a wee tub of sourdough starter. (It needs taking to a parcel post box; that trip is probably going to be combined with picking up my latest prescription from the pharmacy and is almost certainly not going to be made by me.)

Back in the 70s and 80s, my Großmutti was living in Cornwall and her mother, Grausi, was living, still, in Austria. At that point it wasn't really possible to get, in the UK or at least that part of it, poppy seed or vanilla sugar or any of a number of other small comforts that make your connections and your continuities feel a bit less tenuous.

Which is how it came to pass that Grausi would post, across the Iron Curtain, packages containing anonymous (but highly scented) white powder, and poppy seeds that probably weren't a drug precursor, and--

-- and here I am, posting my mother food, and having her post food to me.
kaberett: a patch of sunlight on the carpet, shaped like a slightly wonky heart (light hearted)
Reading. The Secret Commonwealth, Philip Pullman. I have finished this. I have a lot of feelings related and adjacent to it. I will write them up... later.

I spent a significant chunk of Sunday reading various correspondence sent by my grandfather in 1943 and 1944, all out of order, from while he was deployed. One letter enclosed pictures, accompanied by a somewhat testy explanation that he was caught with his mouth open -- rather than smiling sweetly -- because the fellow with the camera had pressed the button while he was still in the middle of explaining how to operate it. It is wonderful.

Also a guide to babysitting a larval (toddler) Alex, because I was invited also to go through the hanging folders in the filing cabinet at my parents' relating to me, which Adam thought was pretty much the best thing ever.

Up next: various short stories open in tabs on my phone; then, probably, This Is How You Lose The Time War, followed by Strange Practice, which I picked up (whyyyy am I still buying new boooooks okay to be fair to me this one's been on my Sounds Intriguing list for a while) because the ebook was on sale for 99p the other day. I meant to tell you all and failed to; my regrets. I shall report back!

Writing. Words not yet on paper, but there's something starting to cohere, maybe. It feels like it'll need a sketch.

Listening. We have now got up to episode 60 of TMA. We both keep getting jolts of confusion every time JonnyJon sounds peevish or otherwise exasperated, because HI JONNY D'VILLE, which is rather disconcerting.

I wish to register my objection to the concept that gold tarnishes, honestly, what even.

Cooking. Broccoli and tofu stir-fry! With a reprise on Sunday at my parents'. Also an enormous vat of vegetable stock and, relatedly, soup. Which needs boiling up, but it's nearly 11 so we're going to bed instead, oh well.

Eating. Tonkotsu! About which I had intended to wax lyrical but also, it's nearly 11 and I'm Going To Bed.

And a pile of ridiculous heavily discounted desserts supermarket desserts; I'm not... entirely sure how Waitrose managed to combine Heston Blumenthal, lemon, elderflower, pear and cheesecake into a whole to which I am largely indifferent, but I am somewhat impressed. (And still mourning the demise of the raspberry and passionfruit cheesecake that was my Fave Supermarket Dessert Treat for a while, albeit sufficiently expensive that I largely only bought it when it was reduced, which might go some way to explaining its discontinuation.)

Exploring. The New Museums Site in Cambridge, because I spent a little while this morning in the zoology department giving wheelchair wheelie lessons. I am utterly baffled by the new Student Services building, and the absence of CUSU, and the through-path past the Arts lecture theatres.

Growing. Plants bimble along. Things not dead yet. Nightshades are actually generally doing pretty well and putting out Additional Leaves, so I have hopes for them yet. I appear to have mislaid my tomato seeds (how) and need to fix that.
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I have (at least since I started the PhD, and probably longer) derived particular joy from looking at the publication dates of academic papers I am reading, and thinking about where I was and what I was doing at the approximate time that research was being performed. I have a particular soft spot for the work done while I was in primary school, for no particular reason other than sentiment, but in general it's just very soothing to watch this continuous chain of human endeavour directed toward Understanding Shit Better in a way that -- from my particular perspective -- funnels down to me. (Anthrophic principle, innit.)
kaberett: a watercolour painting of an oak leaf floating on calm water (leaf-on-water)
Two Bart spice jars labelled cardamom, one empty & one full


On the left: a modern Bart jar labelled cardamom, tall and cylindrical with the stacked black lids. It's empty, labelled 22g and Best Before End Oct 2017 on its square stickers, not that you can see that in the photo. On the right, shorter and generally rounder, with a much simpler green lid, is a jar of Bart cardamom dating from, probably, the mid-nineties. The label is round and scalloped and definitely, at this point, looking charmingly dated. It's mostly full; dspite being an awful lot smaller it contains 30g of spice. It's got a reduced sticker on it.

On the reduced sticker, in probably-my-grandmother's-hand, also not pictured, is written AROMATIC // TRY WITH CURRY RICE OR FRUIT PIES. The price has been changed from "159" to "106".

When we were clearing out the mouldering ancestral pile, a lot of the food had to be binned. The untouched unopened spice jars, bought at cut price, were fine, though. In addition to this one, I've got another jar or two of cardamom in the pantry.

My cousins, various, have decided that Kardemummebullar are The Best Thing Ever, which means I'm making quite a lot of them, which means that I am in fact getting through cardamom quite rapidly. It's still good; it's still aromatic; I'm using it. I've a pan of milk with twenty pods in on the stove, and tomorrow I'll grind the seeds from another fifty in the ancestral spice mill.

On this day in 2010 we held Mama's funeral. Tomorrow I've two godcousins and another of her grandchildren coming over. I'll feed them and we'll probably end up singing at least a bit and Adam might well paint their nails. (The first time I ever had my nails painted, it was Mama who did it, in the big armchair we've now got rid of in the attic sitting room, with newspaper on the floor and a gale outside.)

For now I'll put the bread and then myself to bed.
kaberett: A cartoon of wall art, featuring a banner reading "NO GLORY SAVE HONOR". (no glory save honour)
earlier in the day: a multi-collector inductively coupled plasma mass spectrometer

currently: my grandmother's darning mushroom; needle & threads; A Laptop Computer

in memoriam

Nov. 2nd, 2019 09:36 pm
kaberett: photograph of the Moon taken from the northern hemisphere by GH Revera (moon)
the candles are burning and the Seelkuchen are cooked; even I'm (possibly) getting the hang of making them with jam in middles.
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Diarish: various putterings about, today, with vague gestures toward housework and doing a lot more science (not, of course, that I am anywhere close to done yet, or at least not as close to done as I'd like to be given that it's very definitely my bedtime). The rest of the fennel seed heads are spread out on some ancestral linen on the floor of the study to dry; I used my grandmother's secateurs to chop some dead sunflowers down to a vaguely transportable size; I fed my mother some Potitze, and we played Scrabble with a set liberated from the mouldering ancestral pile; my parents took us out to dinner and I might finally have got the Turkish for "leaf" (yaprak) into active vocab by dint of finally recognising it as a constituent part of a menu item. We talked, over dinner, about the amount of time Papa Hase spent in Turkey; both he and Mama spoke Turkish. Threads of continuity.
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  • "I accidentally made cheese"
  • "yes obviously I want to grind all these poppy seeds"
  • "... shit sorry I put a load of laundry on"

(more poppy seed grinding then BED)
kaberett: a watercolour painting of an oak leaf floating on calm water (leaf-on-water)
I have been missing my grandmother a lot, the last week or so, as I've been working through a bag of plums from the allotment. We've had cobbler and crumble (and indeed at the moment I've got a bag of apples from my mother's garden stewing on the hob, to go into jars tomorrow), but apparently I associate "baked plum desserts" with Mama, and consequently I've been wisting after plums halved, stones left in for flavour, across the bottom of a rectangular Pyrex dish, with some lemon juice and spices, and a single layer of pastry over the top.

I've just also been too tired and worn thin to make the pastry.

I find myself trapped in something of an exhaustion spiral. I'm resenting how much I need to sleep, and how little it means I get done, so I'm arranging my days around not napping, which gives me more time but less energy such that I'm not really actually getting much more done (well, except for the things that want to sit and wait for a while once they've started), so then I stay up "late" to Just Do One More Thing because I can't face 8 o'clock bedtimes and the insomnia would probably interfere anyway, and then I'm too tired to do much, so...

... I did at least take a nap this afternoon, for an hour or so, and I am at least spotting what's going on; in a spirit of accountability, I note here that I am not going to go into work tomorrow: I'm going to stay at home, and sleep, and maybe go rummage around in some plants, and read a novel, and try to rest.

The link, such as it is, is that my mother has been remarking with some degree of envy or intimidation about the number of Fo-ish -- Mama-ish -- things I do: the bread the gardening the marmalade the cakes. On the one hand, I'm bleakly aware that I'm not doing half so much of it as I'd like, or indeed as Mama did, and it's still more, really, than I can manage; on the other, I am trying to remind myself that Mama also routinely took siestas in her latter years.

Round and round we go. I'm being somewhat difficult to live with at the moment. Here's hoping that the sleep helps.
kaberett: a watercolour painting of an oak leaf floating on calm water (leaf-on-water)
For Reasons I have been having Difficulty with food, generally, for the past couple of weeks. Today I am At Home, with - due to some scheduling mishaps that have worked out in my favour - an A also At Home.

I have made soda bread, with rosemary and raisins. I have topped up the buttermilk and it's resting. The yoghurt has come out of the Instant Pot and gone into the fridge. I have prepared the base mix for vanilla ice cream, at Adam's request, to rest overnight and be churned tomorrow. I have eaten soda bread and pickled onions and cheeses and a perfect pear, all of which I actively wanted to eat. I have ingredients for tagine and am working slowly up to maybe making it. I will shortly feed the sourdough.

I wanted to go to the central London protest this evening and had every intention of doing so. And then I had to go out for eggs for the ice cream and I got more and more panicked as I got closer and closer to home, and have decided, to my very great frustration, that trying to get out this evening is really not a good idea.

I can keep myself alive, though, and coax myself back toward health, and keep feeding people, and I have signed the (38deg) petitions (No10); as my next step I will get in touch with my MP.

Keep living seems a small thing, a sad thing to offer (not quite what you deserve me to be), but it's what I've got tonight.
kaberett: (the lost thing)
Thank you to everyone over here who linked me to the Never Again Means Now fundraiser, aiming to cover legal fees for people involved in direct action against the US' concentration camps; I wanted to let you know that I've put the link up on FB, I appear to have been the first person in my extended social sphere to have done so, and it is getting a lot of traction and onward sharing.

I had been feeling utterly hopeless and powerless, and being able to put money towards this is helping. Thank you.

(I wish I had the cope to write a round-up of what this is and why it's important and why I think it's a useful way to spend money on the problem, but I'm afraid I'm one week post-Decapeptyl and I just can't.)
kaberett: A green origami stegosaurus (origami stegosaurus)
Reading. Read more... )

TV. Leverage Leverage Leverage. Aaaaaaaalmost to the end of this season, at which point we will switch back over to Orphan Black for a season.

Music. A concert! EChO's spring offering, as an audient rather than a player, as mentioned yesterday. Our Patron's latest, Mozart's second horn concerto, Beethoven pastoral.

Living space. Garage storage has arrived! Which was very helpful, because the bubble wrap et cet it was delivered in proved extremely useful for Transporting Greenhouse Bits. We haven't yet started filling it up but we are making progress on sorting the next box of charity shop stuff. Finalising bookcases is currently blocked on sorting out (i) where the new Internet comes into the house (which means I need to speak to a neighbour), and (ii) some bonus shelves for something that looks for all the world like an IKEA Billy bookcase but is 24cm deep and 68cm wide instead of... anything even remotely standard for the Billy system.

Growth. SO MUCH HATCHING (peep peep peep peep). Both kinds of pea (in an egg box in the bathroom) are determinedly Wearing Hats; several of the chillis are now coming up with visible leaves and all, and stems that are starting to be purple; comfrey continues enthusiastic in spite of today's actual literal snow; Passiflora edulis is not doing anything detectable, but then I wouldn't expect it to be. Infrastructurally, I've acquired scaffold boards and The Greenhouse (including water butt, gutter connection kit, and some staging). The compost bin is slowly heating up again (and I've got some more food for it to eat tomorrow); I've ordered some legs to arrive later this week, and at some point will get A to drive me over to B&Q to buy some concrete to anchor the legs with. (And dither over paving slabs. And whether to use cheap flower pots or cheap pipe to contain the concrete. And and and...) But: Adam's away next weekend, which means I can just spend the entire thing rolling around in the mud, which in turn means that hopefully I'll at least take steps toward getting it up then or thenabouts.

Cooking. First batch of bread since getting home (which reminds me, I need to get the tiny god out of the fridge so that I can cook with it again tomorrow). Spinach for ravioli outards prepared; butternut squash-roast garlic-ricotta-pine nut innards likewise prepared. Fingers crossed for scraping together the brain & cope to make a big batch tomorrow.

Language. I am... not getting on terribly well with the FutureLearn Irish 101 course so far; I find "here's a bunch of set phrases and we're not going to give you the grammatical background to understand how they're being constructed for an indeterminate time" stressful, so I've stalled partway through the first week. This is frustrating but, eh, maybe I will manage to scrape together brain and cope.

Board games. Read more... )

Pokemon Go. New-to-me species this week: Dialga (BLUE SPIKEY BIOLUMINESCENT DRAGON FRIEND, current legendary raid boss), Mantyke (oh NO it has a SMILEY FACE on its back), Happiny (I... am not sure about this baby Chansey). I caught my first wild Shieldon (having previously hatched one), along with A's first one full stop. I also hatched a shiny Budew and caught a shiny Mankey. (Hopes for a shiny Machop or Makuhita before the end of the current event are... dwindling.)
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On the downside, however, it was purchased in 2002 -- the Woolworths receipt stapled to the distractions advertises the release of The Two Towers -- and is its own standalone device, i.e. very much not the attachment my mother remembers Mama using while she was an undergraduate.

Which -- given the nature of the house -- means there's at least one more ice cream maker somewhere, in addition to today's finds of yet another Kenwood Chef chassis (this one complete with bowl and mixing attachments, hidden behind the stack of disused breadmakers), a coffee grinder, a fourth mincer, and a mysterious thing I know not what.

This is particularly disturbing because I've now gone through as much of the cellar as I'm going to prior to the clearance firm arriving (there is, for example, categorically no way I'm investigating the locked wardrobe that's wedged along a piece of wall behind a wine rack that has been bolted to said wall) and it's... not there. (I was briefly excited by the two potato peelers, previously mentioned, because "a glorified bowl lined with sandpaper and a stirring device similarly coated" has superficial similarities to "a freezable metal bowl and miscellaneous churn", but nope!)

Maybe it's in the freezer that is just getting taken away as-is because No? Maybe it's somewhere under the rafters? Maybe it's in the garage, somewhere, horribile dictu?

Either way, the clearance folk arrive on Thursday morning, and on Thursday morning I will turn into my grandfather: I shall become a wretched little gremlin insisting on poking through every single container they try to remove from the property in the course of the job of work they've been hired to do, in case any of said containers contains something precious.

But then again I did, earlier and at my mother's direction, find on top of the ridiculous wardrobe in the hall, in a nest of dust and spiders and pristine LPs, Papa's commission. And great-grandpa's commission. Signed by the actual respectively relevant kings. Which Papa had sworn blind were Probably In The Attic, and had been keen for us to find, and to be fair the attic would have been A MUCH MORE SENSIBLE PLACE TO PUT THEM but THERE YOU GO, Papa, THERE YOU GO.

solstice

Dec. 21st, 2018 11:09 pm
kaberett: photograph of the Moon taken from the northern hemisphere by GH Revera (moon)
and the days at last grow longer.

here's hoping for a symbolic, as well as a literal, crawling out of the dark for the northern hemisphere.

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