[3W4DW] 14. Did you have a gateway fandom? Still in it? Why or why not?

... Is there a community for it on DW?

• Sort of, but not exactly, in that I apparently signed up the day that Open Beta started (belated happy birthday to Dreamwidth, and a simultaneous belated and early happy birthday to me...) but I only really started thinking of it as my Primary Online Home in about 2011, after meeting noldo and getting dragged delightedly into Avatar fandom.
  
• Yep. Oh dearie me yes. And: because it is the show of my heart, because it is beautiful and heartbreaking and enriching and wonderful. Here is my normal pitch for it:

  Avatar: the Last Airbender is a mainstream US kid's TV show. Within the first five minutes of the first episode of the first season, a female character calls a male character out for sexism, in as many words, and she is taken seriously.
  
  One of the main characters is a six-legged ten-tonne flying platypus-bison. He is a stealthy, stealthy getaway vehicle.
  
  This is a show that contains no white people, that features disabled people, that is full of a wide range of women, that contains a canon trans character - and that deals with abuse and genocide and war and colonialism in nuanced, complicated, loving, difficult, varied and above all target-audience age-appropriate ways.
  
  There are three moments of Fail that I can point out to you.
  
  That's three moments in a three-season series.
  
  Show. Of. My. Heart.

  
  
• Yep! white_lotus.

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I'm not very okay at the moment, and I'm not sure why. I'm safe and I'm functional and I'm managing self-care and I'm enjoying the world (cherry blossom and bluebells and daffodils and tulips and cowslips, and chaffinches bathing in puddles and wagtails bathing in fords, and silk aviation maps and family and--) and I'm reading and I'm even managing work, but I just seem to be... not very okay. I'm not used to being this kind of not-very-okay, and I don't know how to deal with it, and I don't have tools for it, and I don't know what the problem is. I don't know how to deal with depression that presents without anhedonia.

Hmm. PHQ-9 reckons I'm currently scoring 10, dysthymia/minor depression. I suppose that sounds about right? I just- none of the normal triggers are in place, and I don't know why. Or maybe this is what a stressful situation (viz, Finals) looks like after several weeks of pretty intensive mindfulness training? Maybe I'd be much worse off if I hadn't done (as much of) the course (as I have)? I don't know. I don't know what to do with this.

[3W4DW] 15. What's your current obsession? What about it captures your imagination?

Hah. (1) Perfume, and (2) I've already talked about that at some length. ;)

Actually where it's leading is toward me exploring my gender expression in other ways that are traditionally coded feminine - things I've avoided for a long time, but am finally beginning to work out how to incorporate. I've been talking a fair bit about necklaces/chokers, but it also comes up with scarves and shawls. So. That's all very interesting, to me, at least.