bodies are terrible

[kaberett]

I spent an indeterminate amount of time (I wasn't up to checking; I didn't really have much sense of the passage of it) lying very still on the bathroom floor at around 5am. When I managed to drag myself back out of bed at 11 I discovered I'd pulled my towel down to act as a pillow during the horrible clammy nauseous shivering, which up until that point I'd had no recollection of doing. It was pain levels such that your hearing starts buzzing and your movements are extremely erratic; I was sufficiently out of it that it didn't occur to me that I could take codeine (and probably wouldn't have been able to if it had), and bad enough that I seriously considered calling an ambulance in case it was something worse than Just Period Pain (or at least so they'd fucking give me some morphine I didn't have to swallow); the major argument against so doing was honestly "I don't want them to have to break the front door down but I'm pretty certain I can't get down the stairs safely" (plus, you know, "I'm not convinced I'll actually be able to make sentences at the dispatcher" -- A is away this weekend).

So that was fun.

I am now more awake and therefore actually managing to, yes, take some fucking codeine. You can tell I am doing better because I have managed to type this, but "better" is unfortunately still "seven spiking frequently to nine" and "vocalising pain a lot" and "eyes aren't doing a great job of focussing" and "actually I am pretty erratic and not reliably paying attention from one second to the next", which: ALSO SHIT.

(shortcipher is on his way to visit -- he was anyway -- and I am preemptively feeling guilty for being TERRIBLE COMPANY.)

oh thank FUCK the codeine just hit yesssss

Comments

[vass]

:(((((((((

[kaberett]

So the codeine wasn't cutting it so I called the NHS and they're sending an ambulance, which is ridiculous because I really do just want some IV morphine, it really is not this big a deal, BUT HEY

[vass]

Sounds like the right decision, because that really does sound like a NOPE amount of pain. Is shortcipher going with you?

[kaberett]

Yes, has been keeping me company <3

[rmc28]

I hope they treat you well and you get pain relief that works.

[kaberett]

So far I have had mysterious IM diclofenac and scared them with my blood pressure (it dropped from 112/85 to something like 95/62 when they finally let me lie down).

... 118/78 at six thirty, fmor...

[mathemagicalschema]

wait are people supposed to worry about you when your blood pressure goes that low? because 95/62 is about what I measure normally, at the doctor's office, and it's not rare for me to feel lightheaded, but every doctorperson I've asked has shown blase unconcern.

[kaberett]

95/62 is down the low end of normal, plus I was presenting as really flaky/out-of-it, plus it was a substantial drop from what they'd got off me half an hour earlier -- I think was the reason they were concerned, in combination.

In practice this is low enough that I drop into officially Low if I've been nil-by-mouth/underslept/given sedatives, and in fact I will get kept in for observation if I am, as it happens, underslept and nil-by-mouth and then give more sedative than was a good idea (AS I COULD HAVE TOLD THEM IF THEY'D ASKED) -- but it's not low enough to be in and of itself worrying absent impairing symptoms (I have to be careful about changing position because of postural hypotension and I'm more prone to fainting if I get feverish), and just means I need to Eat More SAlt. In practical terms.

[mathemagicalschema]

Ah! I see.

[(Anonymous)]

in short term obs, it's changes that are more relevant than values

[worlds_of_smoke]

I hope you can get some pain relief that works. -offers hugs-

[kaberett]

Thank you. <3 Not on this occasion, but I will be pushing for a better medium-term solution.

[serene]

OMG, that sounds terrible. Be bad company if it means having someone who cares nearby. Take care of you.

[kaberett]

I have been thoroughly taken care of and indeed people have rearranged their plans such that I have company in the house overnight <3

[alexseanchai]

oh that sucks sucks sucks :(

[kaberett]

IT REALLY DID. Better now!

[hilarita]

Oh that sucks, big time. I hope you've got some pain relief, and that someone can get you home safely afterwards.

[kaberett]

I am indeed safely home, and have overnight company (that was not originally planned).

[jelazakazone]

OMG so glad you are feeling better (for some value of better) now.

[kaberett]

Thank you. <3

[shewhostaples]

Ugh - sounds grim. Hope effective pain relief shows up very soon.

[kaberett]

Alas not, but time heals all wounds (or... something), so I'm much happier and much more comfortable, and will be arguing quite strongly for having access to effective pain relief laid by for the future.

[inoru_no_hoshi]

:((( *hugs???*

[kaberett]

Thank you!

[quartzpebble]

ow ow ow, so sorry. :( I hope you're getting the care you need. <3

[kaberett]

After a fashion. <3

[emperor]

Oww :( *hugs*

[kaberett]

Thank you!

[ewt]

Not fun! Thinking of you.

[kaberett]

Thank you: I am now substantially less enpained (thanks be to the passing of time) and have gritted my teeth in the direction of Taking Next Steps.

[tree_and_leaf]

I hope the NHS are helpful and that you get some relief.

[kaberett]

Alas not massively so immediately, but it turned out to be nothing serious and I was at least in the right place for if that hadn't been the outcome. Next steps identified and being prepped for...

[tree_and_leaf]

I am very glad it was nothing serious and that you seem to be in a better state this morning. Poor you.

[mathemagicalschema]

Shit, bodies are terrible. Thinking of you ♥

[kaberett]

Thank you. <3

[azurelunatic]

damn bodies :(

[kaberett]

♥

[chiasmata]

Yiiiiikes. Bloody bloody endo. I hope you are doing better x

[kaberett]

Much better now, yes, thank you, time having elapsed; I am going to push quite hard for having ready access to adequate pain relief for future iterations of this, in the various follow-up appointments I'll be making.

[chiasmata]

Yeah, that sounds sensible. Glad it's ramped back down again now.

[flippac]

Sorry I'm a bit late noticing - glad it kicked in adequately, and good luck re the follow-ups!

[davidgillon]

Oh, ick. (Belatedly)

I've done the bathroom thing (obviously not for endo) and when the pain reaches that level you just aren't capable of rational planning.

If the 'not convinced I'll actually be able to make sentences at the dispatcher' is primarily vocal, might be worth registering with the emergency SMS service http://www.emergencysms.org.uk/ in case of a repeat performance.