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kaberettI don't try drugs with the common [in the clinical sense: experienced by up to 10% of users] side-effect of depression unless I am actually an in-patient or I have at least four weeks to dedicate to nothing but experimenting with meds.
I don't care if it's the placebo effect.
I always - always - find anxiety and depression more difficult to cope with than pain, or even than incipient chest infections. I would rather end up on IV antibiotics than dealing - at home, alone - with the way that even low doses of prednisolone make me feel. The possible benefits of gabapentin are not, to me, worth the side effects.
It's okay for me to make that decision. I get to make these choices about my care. We are complex systems, all of us, and what is best for someone else is not necessarily what is best for me. This is to be expected. And I am the expert on me, and on what I can live with.
It helps to remind myself of these things. Maybe in saying them out loud I'll believe them.
(Also? Thank you, past self, for making up a box of trail mix and leaving it on the desk by the computer. You're awesome. ♥)
I don't care if it's the placebo effect.
I always - always - find anxiety and depression more difficult to cope with than pain, or even than incipient chest infections. I would rather end up on IV antibiotics than dealing - at home, alone - with the way that even low doses of prednisolone make me feel. The possible benefits of gabapentin are not, to me, worth the side effects.
It's okay for me to make that decision. I get to make these choices about my care. We are complex systems, all of us, and what is best for someone else is not necessarily what is best for me. This is to be expected. And I am the expert on me, and on what I can live with.
It helps to remind myself of these things. Maybe in saying them out loud I'll believe them.
(Also? Thank you, past self, for making up a box of trail mix and leaving it on the desk by the computer. You're awesome. ♥)
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