In memoriam

Nov. 5th, 2017 12:07 am
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Papa died today (yesterday); my mother phoned me from the M5 near Exeter -- "We just missed Papa." I'd assumed she was calling me about the All Blacks game she'd been supposed to be watching at Twickenham.

Nothing feels particularly real, yet, so emotions to follow. I'm being looked after.
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The Disc is a world and mirror of worlds, so naturally stories about the Disc are in fact stories about stories. This is, I think, what my mother fails to understand when she complains that Pratchett never wrote a single original thing; he takes stories and puts them together differently, shows you the parallels and the differences and the power to define the world depending on the story that you tell about it. They are stories about stories that reflect us back to ourselves, and tell us there's no such thing as fair or easy; or at least that they're rare and we don't get to expect them but fair, at least, we have to believe in in order to be human. That we will make hard choices and we will choose wrong and we will screw up but, also, we can muddle through; that if there isn't space for us we can tell stories that create it. Mirror and lens both: to bring into focus and to cast light and to show what is hidden, to show us that we are real, to show us an unfamiliar view of the everyday that permits that we see it anew in all its detail and its brightness. And, perhaps most importantly for me - at least right now - that being a monster does not mean you are constrained to re/act within the shape of others' belief of what your kind of monster is.
kaberett: Lin Beifong crying (lin-tear)
WHAT CAN THE HARVEST HOPE FOR, IF NOT THE CARE OF THE REAPER MAN?
kaberett: Reflections of a bare tree in river ice in Stockholm somehow end up clad in light. (tree-of-light)
It was Discworld, I think, that taught me it was okay for me to be a monster, and that being a monster didn't mean I had to be what other people thought that meant. It was Discworld that first managed to communicate to me that we work so hard to believe the little lies because it makes it possible for us to believe in the big ones. It was my first real fandom and it gave me somewhere to exist and it talked about worlds that had space for me in them. Pterry told me I could be a witch of the land and a teacher and that I could endure and make hard choices. He made and makes me kinder.
kaberett: photograph of the Moon taken from the northern hemisphere by GH Revera (moon)
Longstanding family friend - one of my mum's best friends for decades - is not going to be with us much longer; we weren't close but he's always been a fixture and I am fond of the guy. He's a good man and it's a shit way to go. So... I'm going to be a bit wobbly, I suspect. (And rearranging my lab schedule to fit in the funeral, if considered appropriate.)

(That makes two of her people this year. How do I share the memories of these men with you, these men who were human and flawed and almost always one step removed from me and nonetheless important? I will try, I think, like this: Andy was, as best I recall, the first person ever to say that my poetry was good, and to ask if I was considering submitting for publication; Jake let me be slow and quiet and gentle with his dogs, and watched Ebony closely, and she let me hold one of her tiny squirmy eyes-still-shut legs-all-wonky puppies on my lap, and he was kind and impressed and let me practice commands on gun-dogs. On Christmas Eve every year a card would come through the door without a ring or knock & we'd listen for it in the interests of grabbing him and giving him a mince pie and a drink.)
kaberett: a watercolour painting of an oak leaf floating on calm water (leaf-on-water)
Huh, apparently I haven't actually recced A Litany for Survival here, at least not any place I can find it readily? So let's start with that.

A Litany for Survival )

from Walking Our Boundaries

The sun is watery warm
our voices
seem too loud for this small yard
too tentative for women
so in love
the siding has come loose in spots
our footsteps hold this place
together
as our place
our joint decisions make the possible
whole.
I do not know when
we shall laugh again
but next week
we will spade up another plot
for this spring's seeding.


from Eulogy for Alvin Frost )
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it is a Thursday night, like any other
and just like any other, people die.
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Content notes: paranoia about death and serious illness.

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Nov. 13th, 2013 11:29 pm
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Helen's funeral is going to be in Cambridge on the afternoon of Thursday the 21st (her birthday). I don't have more details yet but if you'd like me to pass them on to you as and when I know them, give us a shout and I'll do my best (but my head's a bit everywhere at the moment, so please do prod me if you haven't heard from me).

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