update on self care
Jan. 27th, 2013 12:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kaberettmy moisturiser is now scented with black pepper, vanilla and bergamot. I - I have no idea if this was wise BUT WEVS :D
suggestions for scent combination for next bottle welcomed, especially on the back of a postcard ;)
Meanwhile I have nearly finished Lewis Wolpert's Malignant Sadness - the anatomy of depression, and will shortly be diving into Overcoming Depression (on the recommendation of my counsellor).
& I went to a lovely concert tonight with my mother, and I am so delighted I am a horn player, because it meant that when the poor soloist completely flubbed the Weber horn concerto he was playing (on Naturhorn, the brave sod) I could firstly hear the music through the misery, and secondly tell what was wrong with him. The poor lamb spent pretty much the entire piece making the sad mouthshapes that horn players do when their lip is about to give, because of exhaustion or because of anxiety; he very, very obviously had been absolutely fantastic in every single rehearsal, and was feeling awful about the mess he was making of it, but he struggled bravely on and mostly I wanted to give him a hug. (He split easy notes all over the place, and runs were muddy, but all the terrifying sections - the exposed high notes, the fanfares - were spot on. Poor, poor man.) It opened with Bach and closed with Mozart and there was also a fantastic concerto for double bass and viola in the middle. Great fun, apart from collapsing in pain halfway through, but I was nonetheless cheered by the fact that the horn section clearly had fantastic rapport, and one of them had an awesome wheelchair.
suggestions for scent combination for next bottle welcomed, especially on the back of a postcard ;)
Meanwhile I have nearly finished Lewis Wolpert's Malignant Sadness - the anatomy of depression, and will shortly be diving into Overcoming Depression (on the recommendation of my counsellor).
& I went to a lovely concert tonight with my mother, and I am so delighted I am a horn player, because it meant that when the poor soloist completely flubbed the Weber horn concerto he was playing (on Naturhorn, the brave sod) I could firstly hear the music through the misery, and secondly tell what was wrong with him. The poor lamb spent pretty much the entire piece making the sad mouthshapes that horn players do when their lip is about to give, because of exhaustion or because of anxiety; he very, very obviously had been absolutely fantastic in every single rehearsal, and was feeling awful about the mess he was making of it, but he struggled bravely on and mostly I wanted to give him a hug. (He split easy notes all over the place, and runs were muddy, but all the terrifying sections - the exposed high notes, the fanfares - were spot on. Poor, poor man.) It opened with Bach and closed with Mozart and there was also a fantastic concerto for double bass and viola in the middle. Great fun, apart from collapsing in pain halfway through, but I was nonetheless cheered by the fact that the horn section clearly had fantastic rapport, and one of them had an awesome wheelchair.
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Date: 2013-01-27 01:53 am (UTC)PM RECEIVED.
my plan for the night appears to be "shove something down throat & crawl in bed" which probably sounds like i am sad (that is a typical sad-reaction!) but instead i am just that cognitively exhausted. i am accomplishing nothing ("i want this not to be real" is not an encouraged response to homework) and i feel like even watching tv might be beyond me just now. i wonder what i can shove down my throat. something dishes-free so i don't have to wash. (orrrr i can hide the dishes in my room overnight. things i do actually quite a bit.) maybe there's an apple!
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Date: 2013-01-27 01:58 am (UTC)I just ate emergency pizza from the freezer cooked & brought into room by lovely housemates. Otherwise I am being a bit flomped; I mean I guess I am responding to comments that are outstanding? ALSO MY MUM JUST E-MAILED ME TO TELL ME MY PHONE HAS BEEN FOUND (I lost it last week) so I get to pick it up (for freeeeee) so yes. More productive than I expected to be!
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Date: 2013-01-27 05:40 pm (UTC)actually I just ended up eating popcorn for dinner. again. oh well. no dishes! hahaha.
ahhhhh I just found a hunk of fresh ginger in my fried rice. weird, but YAY. I love ginger.