quotidian resistance

[kaberett]

For Reasons I have been having Difficulty with food, generally, for the past couple of weeks. Today I am At Home, with - due to some scheduling mishaps that have worked out in my favour - an A also At Home.

I have made soda bread, with rosemary and raisins. I have topped up the buttermilk and it's resting. The yoghurt has come out of the Instant Pot and gone into the fridge. I have prepared the base mix for vanilla ice cream, at Adam's request, to rest overnight and be churned tomorrow. I have eaten soda bread and pickled onions and cheeses and a perfect pear, all of which I actively wanted to eat. I have ingredients for tagine and am working slowly up to maybe making it. I will shortly feed the sourdough.

I wanted to go to the central London protest this evening and had every intention of doing so. And then I had to go out for eggs for the ice cream and I got more and more panicked as I got closer and closer to home, and have decided, to my very great frustration, that trying to get out this evening is really not a good idea.

I can keep myself alive, though, and coax myself back toward health, and keep feeding people, and I have signed the (38deg) petitions (No10); as my next step I will get in touch with my MP.

Keep living seems a small thing, a sad thing to offer (not quite what you deserve me to be), but it's what I've got tonight.

Comments

[kaberett]

okay apparently my political action for the day is tweeting my MP, ugh

[booksarelife]

That was an awesome tweet you did! Also what does “gut microbiome transfers” mean?

[archangelbeth]

Collecting poop, doing things that try to minimize pathogen transfer, and inserting that poop into someone else. Rectally, I think.

If such things caused better absorption of nutrients and/or reduced intestinal pain (e.g., gas, etc.), then I'm sure there might be a lessening of stress, and thus a lessening of the "symptoms" of a stressed autistic person. (Which probably describes most or all of the autistic folks they've been dealing with.)

I would not want to throw around words like "cure," however. Not least because I do not want my Offspring to shiv me, but also because most of the autistic behaviors that upset neurotypicals tend to be responses to stressors*, and therefore a "lessening of autistic symptoms" is probably "individual has more spoons to cope with stressors in the environment." They're not "less autistic"; they're less stressed.


(*Others are "happy stimming" behaviors, which neurotypicals find unpredictable and thus get all bent out of shape about, and some are "avoiding a stressor in the first place" behaviors.)