{I am writing graffiti on your body/I am drawing the story of how hard we tried}

[kaberett]

Caffeine: still, as it turns out, a bad idea. Probably. (Semi-accidentally had caffeine yesterday evening; was up ridiculously late in quiet tears about largely-disconnected-from-reality anxieties.)

I have just received an unambiguously helpful response from the Yellow Card folk, on two counts: first, they've added Mx as a title and updated my report to use it; and second, they've asked me for some more details and have passed on my specific query ("can you look into whether this side effect is associated with weird lung shit to do with connective tissue disorders as well as COPD, because that was an unpleasant surprise") to the scientific assessment team, who will apparently be getting in touch with me sometime in the next fortnight. So: huh.

Rivers of London: really enjoyed book one, was seriously hacked off with the gratuitous cissexism in book two, am still mildly grumpy halfway through book three -- but I am still reading, so.

Here is an essay: On Conflicting Emotional Needs In Relationships.

Here is a recipe I haven't yet tried: mulled wine plum crumble.

Comments

[alexseanchai]

Caffeine is always a bad idea, says them who drinks at least two cans of Pepsi a day and sometimes a largish mocha instead of one of the Pepsis. >_>

WOOT on both counts!

I have never had plums that I recall so I cannot judge whether I am liable to find that recipe tasty.

[kaberett]

This is actually my first accidental caffeine innnnnnn several years? I've had a couple of mouthfuls of weak black tea deliberately in the past few years, to help kick a benzodiazapine hangover, but mostly that shit gives me massive physiological anxiety response and accompanying crazy. I can but assume that combining it with sleep dep + alcohol was responsible for keeping the response relatively muted, but I'm not terribly keen on the idea of having an actual cup of tea, e.g., because even though obviously I'm making all my sensitivities/intolerances up and it's obviously all psychosomatic/nocebo, I think this about my endometriosis (spoiler: I need to be on all the painkillers I'm on), my joint hypermobility (spoiler: I did in fact sublux my right hip through having the temerity to attempt standing through a gig last night), my lungs (...), etc, too -- and on the whole I'd rather not lose the rest of the day to hyperventilatory hysteria.

... huh, re plums.

[alexseanchai]

Yes, entirely understood!

[davidgillon]

(spoiler: I did in fact sublux my right hip through having the temerity to attempt standing through a gig last night)

Owie! Left hip was so unhappy yesterday I was using the chair in the house, which normally I don't do, so sympathy!

on the whole I'd rather not lose the rest of the day to hyperventilatory hysteria.

Doesn't seem entirely unreasonable!