Okay so like
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kaberettI'm reading this self-help guide about panic attacks by the Clinical Centre for Interventions (.au) and it's just so... alien to so much of my experience?
For example: I'm not scared of panic attacks in the way they seem to be suggesting? They're inconvenient and they give me a hangover and I'd rather not have them, but I'm not afraid of them. And: monitoring my body constantly doesn't make them worse, it makes me better.
I'm also finding it difficult to sort out how much of the advice just doesn't apply to me because of interacting conditions. Like: yes, taking unfamiliar public transport is terrifying, but that's because of sensory overload and the microaggressions I get as a wheelchair user and fear of the time & energy it'll take to get myself unlost if I miss my stop? And the social energy it takes to fake being human while interacting with drivers etc, and the fact that it's not unlikely that a random stranger will start asking me personal and invasive questions about my medical situation and I won't know how to get them to stop without risking escalation, and so on and so forth.
However I do need to grumpily stare at the Core Beliefs module some more. I think I'm already doing most of the things they suggest - e.g. recognising that my desire to ask for reassurance all the damn time does not mean reassurance is actually helpful - but trying to think of ways to effectively challenge t'others of them as opposed to filing them under "belief not knowledge" and ignoring might be good for me?
For example: I'm not scared of panic attacks in the way they seem to be suggesting? They're inconvenient and they give me a hangover and I'd rather not have them, but I'm not afraid of them. And: monitoring my body constantly doesn't make them worse, it makes me better.
I'm also finding it difficult to sort out how much of the advice just doesn't apply to me because of interacting conditions. Like: yes, taking unfamiliar public transport is terrifying, but that's because of sensory overload and the microaggressions I get as a wheelchair user and fear of the time & energy it'll take to get myself unlost if I miss my stop? And the social energy it takes to fake being human while interacting with drivers etc, and the fact that it's not unlikely that a random stranger will start asking me personal and invasive questions about my medical situation and I won't know how to get them to stop without risking escalation, and so on and so forth.
However I do need to grumpily stare at the Core Beliefs module some more. I think I'm already doing most of the things they suggest - e.g. recognising that my desire to ask for reassurance all the damn time does not mean reassurance is actually helpful - but trying to think of ways to effectively challenge t'others of them as opposed to filing them under "belief not knowledge" and ignoring might be good for me?
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