Elementary
Apr. 11th, 2014 10:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kaberettSo I've had a good but very long day, and then friendperson came round and I went "actually I want to be horizontal in the dark" & abandoned friendperson & housemate to one another's company and watched last night's Elementary, and, um, wow.
They hit three of my areas of trauma - Everyone Is Secretly Dead And You Won't Know (In Time To Get To The Funeral); addiction as cause of death being deliberately concealed; and physical violence against inanimate objects in close-and-trusting relationships.
And it was real and believable and heart-wrenching and honest and it didn't trigger me. Every single time it came close the show... did something that made it... not okay, but bearable. And I just - fuck me, fuck me, that is a gift beyond words.
I... begin to believe that it is safe to trust this show. I am crying but it is in gratitude and relief, not fear.
They hit three of my areas of trauma - Everyone Is Secretly Dead And You Won't Know (In Time To Get To The Funeral); addiction as cause of death being deliberately concealed; and physical violence against inanimate objects in close-and-trusting relationships.
And it was real and believable and heart-wrenching and honest and it didn't trigger me. Every single time it came close the show... did something that made it... not okay, but bearable. And I just - fuck me, fuck me, that is a gift beyond words.
I... begin to believe that it is safe to trust this show. I am crying but it is in gratitude and relief, not fear.
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Date: 2014-04-12 08:23 am (UTC)I'm glad that the show managed to make it bearable for you. (On finishing our watch-through this morning C & I both thought, 'hmm, better let Alex know what's in there..' but then you already knew.)
This has also sparked some thoughts for me about how trust is generative; but this is probably not the place for those thoughts.
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Date: 2014-04-12 10:23 am (UTC)