[do one thing every day that scares you]

[kaberett]

Yrs trly, pulling the "I have been in lab for four hours and it's only just 11am" face. (On the plus side, I am making progress!)

The thing on my head is my lizard-print stretchy tube, wot I originally acquired for keeping my hair out of my eyes on hikes but have discovered is extremely useful for keeping hair out of eyes in lab when I am not supposed to be touching my face (in this image I am smooshing one cheek with the hand I am resting my chin on, with no gloves - that's because it's the other lab I'm not supposed to touch my face in, but I'm going backwards and forwards frequently enough that it's not worth the hassle of taking off the lizards). Also feat.: The Sky Above My Planet, my Roger Waters The Wall tour hoody (which I keep in lab for when COLD), and one of my favourite black shirts (acquired about ten years ago after a punt trip in torrential rain).

Comments

[jjhunter]

it is a pleasing face
in that it is yours

(we have the same kind of glasses!
aw)

[kaberett]

here I use "ridiculous" mostly affectionately
(the thing I am really working on - that made great progress over the weekend - is learning to tolerate the sound of my own voice)
(if I were to record myself reading a poem on terrible kit as part exercise for this, do you have a preference for which?)

the arms are translucent teal & brown
which neatly ties together my brown hair & my normally-teal scarf
as though I dress with style, or some shit
but had the unfortunate effect, in the first few weeks
of confusing me.
because, you see, it's quite common
for me to search for something teal
(and anyone who's met my room can tell you there's a lot of it)
ah!, said a flame-flash-bright in peripheral vision, there it i-
--shit.

(mostly-affectionate is better
but I will work on getting better still)

(I don't think this is a poem,
or not quite,
but here it is anyway:
I'm not always sure I'm a person,
or not quite,
but here I am.)

[jjhunter]

oh, I would enjoy listening
to most anything you choose to read
yours or mine or another's

yes please
thank you for the offer of sharing :o)

[ilanin.livejournal.com]

When I started recording my own voice, it actually took me quite a while to even recognise what I had recorded as my own voice; it didn't sound anything like what I normally sound like. Or so I thought.

(To be fair, some of this may have been the microphone; I have a more expensive one these days, and I think I sound a bit more like me - but then I've also been recording and playing back stuff for well over a year, so it's probably just growing familiarity.)

I don't know if this is useful information or not. But it is at least information.

[kaberett]

... it didn't sound anything like what I normally sound like. Or so I thought.

Yep. This is part of my problem. As a singer & performer, I can tell you that some of this enormous disjoint is down to source - if we're hearing the sound with all of the information of resonance from the lungs & skull &c that are producing it, the noise is really different to what's perceived with all that extra information stripped away.

So - yeah. Going to work on getting used to that and approaching myself compassionately, I think.

[cadenzamuse]

I really prefer my voice as I hear it with internal resonance--it's lower in pitch, with more depth to it. It's hard for me to listen to my voice as other people hear it, as I really dislike having such a high, feminine voice. I've always wanted my speaking voice to have an "Alto 2/Contralto," somewhat androgynous sound, and when I hear it recorded I reflexively flinch from the perceived "Mezzo Soprano" nature of it. (For the record, my singing voice is Alto, but I am not trained at all, so I don't know what my full, trained range would look like. As it is, I think I'm an Alto 1.)

Anyway, I think I would have a really hard time deliberately trying to be accepting of my voice and approaching myself compassionately there, so I'm really impressed that you're trying.

[swaldman]

oh, you saw the The Wall tour too?
*fistbump* :-)

[kaberett]

ayup :D

[jelazakazone]

<3 <3

[kaberett]

:-)

[sorrillia]

Is a nice head-covery-thing. I need to get into the habit of wearing those again now that Mike is leaving. Have not tried stretchy tubes. Unsure; maybe should, but suspect don't have enough hair for it to work well for me.

[worlds_of_smoke]

♥

[calissa]

Hello! <3

I do like this picture of you. The lizard stretchy tube is a great idea (and makes me think I need to drag out my bandanas again).

It sounds like it was a long day. I am glad to hear that you are making progress, though.

[fyreharper]

hello! you have a face! :waves excitedly:

[macey]

I'm still not entirely convinced that single-digit morning hours should exist for anything other than, perhaps, breakfast.

Well, 9 is okay. 9 can stay. But 7 is Right Out.

[naath]

Cool lizard thing. I have a purple thing like it (but very warm, maybe yours is warm too?) and it's very useful.

7am is a no good bad horrible kind of time, but of course this is just my prejudice speaking.