who only by moving can balance

Yeah, I think the depression is the worst part of our chronic illnesses. The pain, the fatigue, we can work through. But the depression doesn't leave us any energy to even attempt to work through it. All we can do is just curl into a ball and hope it fucks off soon. And it leaves us with so little energy that we have difficulty pushing through the things we can deal with when we're not depressed. So not only does the depression crush us, the mountain we're usually dealing with starts crushing us, too.