who only by moving can balance

J. It is not infrequently the case that your model of grim determination, much as it is clearly awful, helps me keep going. And you are the reason that every time I go past a gingko tree I smile (in getting me to look at them more you helped me understand the other layers I had of other people caring about them), for which I am always grateful -- I think of you every time -- and you remind me to look for small joys (bursting blueberry-bright) and you have introduced me to so much brilliant music I cannot even. I am in awe of your musical taste & I am in awe of your language-learning (it makes me feel more like I can actually end up competent at my mother-tongue) & I am in awe of your fashion and your insight & your incisiveness. I am so so glad to know you; your trust is a blessing and an honour. xx