who only by moving can balance

You have had so much to handle lately, and you're demonstrating such strength and grace in how you deal with unbearable loss. I know that the fact you're strong doesn't mean you're hurting less than someone who might fall apart in similar circumstances, so I'm concerned for you as well as admiring you. But I do admire you, very much indeed. Also for making sensible thoughtful comments in various internet discussions that really help people, including me.