bits and pieces

• the company I bought a bike pump from had been having troubles with their supplier; after I sent them a message, they had a rummage and ended up digging out two models up in the same brand (which sells for about twice the price) and couriering it over to me (!!). Very, very happy with them; Bliss Bikes if'n you're interested
  
• I am super-excited about post today: my copy of Sông I Sing arrived (& woozl promptly made gleeful noises at it; thanks, littlebutfierce!)
  
• I've been listening to Seanan McGuire's album Wicked Girls on repeat, and I... kind of want to write fic for all of it, I've just got no idea where to even START; never mind, I'm sure something will coalesce
  
• lunch today was all of us, er, Having Fun: there was rosemary & olive oil La Brea in the co-op, and I have an enormous soft spot for La Brea; there were avocados at a reduced price and I've been wanting them for ages; so what with one thing and another we ended up with ONE BOWL CONTAINING sliced avocado, thinly sliced fennel, salt, pepper, lemon juice; and ONE BOWL CONTAINING white bean and toasted garlic dip courtesy of noldo; and this constituted FOOD tyvm
  
• noldo and the woozl BROUGHT ME A JAR OF KAYA BACK FROM THEIR SHOPPING TRIP AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH :D
  
• ongoing e-mail exchange with the university's Disabilities lot, which is tentatively starting to look helpful - we've set up a meeting
  
• I have spent lots of today sorting out my ebook library, which has been very soothing; also, if you have anything to do with ebooks, get Calibre coz it's awesome
  
• WTF, Evolution? continues a source of great joy in my life (noooooooooooooooooooooose squid!)
  
• DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG
  
• I've just been introduced to this lovely, quiet little poem via poetry

Things I've learned from counselling #5

Well enough is, well, enough.

I struggle with perfectionism. The Gifted Child, artificially high standards, abuse, Making [People Love Me/Myself Lovable], etc. (I'm trying very hard not to be more dismissive about this than I am being; there's the temptation to practise self-deprecation rather than self-compassion, and there's also the back-of-brain voice about bragging & self-aggrandising & talk-it-down-or-people-will-hate-you.)

It's better to write a document well enough than to get myself trapped in the spiral of "I don't have the brain for it just yet; I'll put it off until I do; oh gods it's been three months it has to be REALLY GOOD NOW else SO LOSE FACE."

Hypothetical future perfection isn't helpful. First drafts and starting points are - and that's okay.