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kaberettThing that is nice: I am mostly, currently, getting to horn practice o'clock after dinner, starting around eight, which is to say, just about as bat o'clock rolls around. I get to sit in the study and make squawking music and watch A Bat happen. It is lovely.
Another thing that is nice: I have spent the afternoon pivoting from "ugh but I don't WANT to read this paper from 1997" (the year I finally learned how to tie a shoelaces, via a lot of concerted effort) to "as a geologist I get to gleefully declare that I am CORRECT about the fundamental nature of the world and it's even ACCURATE (and now I've done that maths I suppose I'd better read the paper)".
I'm still see-sawing wildly between solid trust in my own models and towering impostor syndrome, of course, but it's so satisfying that every time I go "oh heck I didn't consider this constraint--" my beautiful model just. satisfies it. without even needing any massaging. Almost as if I'm right, or something.
Another thing that is nice: I have spent the afternoon pivoting from "ugh but I don't WANT to read this paper from 1997" (the year I finally learned how to tie a shoelaces, via a lot of concerted effort) to "as a geologist I get to gleefully declare that I am CORRECT about the fundamental nature of the world and it's even ACCURATE (and now I've done that maths I suppose I'd better read the paper)".
I'm still see-sawing wildly between solid trust in my own models and towering impostor syndrome, of course, but it's so satisfying that every time I go "oh heck I didn't consider this constraint--" my beautiful model just. satisfies it. without even needing any massaging. Almost as if I'm right, or something.