{you've got boring, unlovely depression; it blunts you & hobbles your will}

[kaberett]

Today I have not yet got out of bed for more than 10 minutes at a time.

TADA
- 10.5 hours' sleep
- e-mailed the person I was supposed to be meeting at 5 to cancel on them
- tweaked some CSS on the new VP site (under construction) to bring it in line with design spec
- prodded friendperson who is giving me some more of design spec
- ate toast
- had shower
- looked at sourdough (it begins to ferment)
- sorted out work e-mail incl looking at the new e-mails
- decided I'm not going out ergo I don't need to dress up
- spent five minutes moving laundry around to get it into a state where I feel more like dealing
- have turned on main machine and got loud music going
- also warm comforting textured perfume
- belatedly also texted person saying "sorry I am a failpanda today"
- put on socks
- put away socks and underwear
- hahahaha Dissatisfactions just came up on shuffle
- got down clotheshangers
- folded up and put away t-shirts
- shirts hung up
- ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED: LAUNDRY PUT AWAY
- moved a couplefew things through to the washing-up heap the better to get a handle on what's going on
- moved a couplefew things through to recycling
- moved current recycling bag through to hall
- sent a shirty e-mail
- replied to scheduling e-mail about wheelchair repair
- replied to an e-mail from one of the new PhD students
- replied to essay!e-mail (I READ EDITS AND EVERYTHING)
- got out of bed!!! have been sat at my desk for like HALF AN HOUR go me
- posted query to Psychonauts forum and only fell down the GG rabbithole a bit
- emptied dishwasher
- did all of the washing up except the crystal (which wants TLC)
- moved a bunch of stuff into biomull (I think I have not yet mentioned how excited I am that my compost is actually looking like compost these days, having been rotting down for about a year)
- did steps 1 & 2 of cleaning the hobs
- started making dinner
- finished cleaning hobs
- got dinner to the point where it'll be good to go once friendperson arrives
- downloaded the entire journal edition I need to summarise into a paragraph for ease of reference
- opened up e-mail from my baby brother to deal with
- fetched self glass of iced water
- put more recycling in the recycling
- cooked and ate dinner! (hash browns + scrambled eggs + peas OM NOM NOM that is totally a meal)
- had ElemnentaFeelz
- sent some comments to the shetland pony on the latest bit of homework he sent me for feedback (people have done MONTE CARLO SIMULATIONS OF HEDGEHOG TRAJECTORIES you DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW IMPORTANT THIS IS)
-- and felt guilty about the bit where being able to e-mail his older sibling, with higher degrees in the sciences, and ask for help with his first-year stuff, puts him at a distinct advantage, and anyone else getting this much help from me would be paying me somewhere over £20/hr minimum for it, and ugh I am supporting the kyriarchy but also he is my baby brother
-- and anyway I charge my institution for time spent teaching; one-on-one stuff I tend to do for free and attempt to make it as clear as possible that I'm happy and willing to infodump on any of my specialist topics at the slightest provocation & super-willing to help
- took slightly over bare minimum meds! (i.e. bedmeds + PPI + a couple painkillers; bare-minimum is amitriptyline + citalopram)
- popped out of the house briefly (to take up the recycling and acquire chocolate-based desserts)
- fed the sourdough
- put on some bread for the morningtimes
- put new recycling bag in recycling
- put away dry washing-up
- moved all current washing-up into a stack to be dealt with tomorrow, & put into dishwasher the dishwasherable things
- put ereader on to charge
- left eBay feedback

really really todo: rinse out the dishwasher filters

Comments

[alexseanchai]

Yay enough sleep and fixing CSS and fermenting sourdough!

[batdina]

sometimes a shower is the best I can do on a bad day. by my standards you're doing just fine today.

[danohu]

yeah, I know days like that. Still, congrats on doing small stuff, and posting this, and generally coping.

[redsixwing]

Ooooh sourdough.

Hooray for wrangling the laundry and getting sleep and music and perfume.

[davidgillon]

Fairly certain you've achieved more than I have today - including the sleeping! (Fell asleep 8PM, woke at midnight - seriously, body?)

[kaberett]

idk, I just - I can just about keep myself ticking over and get a small amount of value-to-society done provided I don't have to, you know, work a job :-(

[jelazakazone]

I have no idea how people work 8+ hours outside the home, drive there and back, and do anything else. I don't have the time or energy for that "extra stuff". I am very lucky.

[fyreharper]

With difficulty/not a lot of other things/there are always so many things that should get done but don't... :says a datapoint of one:

[rootsofthestories]

*waves pom-poms!*

[deathbyshinies]

Hooray for small victories! :)

[highlyeccentric]

For a day spent mostly in bed that looks quite a lot like productivity.

[kaberett]

It's just a pity about the big deadline on Tuesday I've barely looked at sideways. :-(

[cosmolinguist]

I am feeling your subject line here so hard right now.

Thus I'm all the more impressed with your small victories. <3

[kaberett]

it makes you feel sick
to see these beautiful pricks
build careers being beautifully ill
they flit & they flutter about you
they're offended & never ashamed
& everything's shit & this shithole called Britain
takes your sickness in place of your name

Indelicates, Dovahkiin

[worlds_of_smoke]

that's a hell of a lot of stuff to do. -hugs- you are awesome.

[jelazakazone]

This sounds like quite a lot for someone who has only spent 10 minutes at a time out of bed!

[quartzpebble]

Well done, you.

[hairyears]

For most of us, perfect and otherwise, no-one ever gets to hear about our bad days.

You're doing better than some days.