"There's social stuff too, of course - the delicate duality whereby misogyny is wrong, evidently and clearly, but there is additional grating unease when I experience it arising from you're treating me in a way congruent with your perceiving me as a woman, distinct from the way you are treating me is wrong because politics and humanity."
Wow, this sounds familiar. I've talked some about my dad raising me essentially as male because he wanted a son, not a daughter. I have reactions that are, the way you're treating me is not okay because it's not okay to treat ANYONE that way (social/political) and then the, wait why the fuck are you considering me this way? feelings. Made all the more complicated because I really don't know if that's actually how I feel about my gender or if it's an ingrained reaction because of how I was raised; at this point, I haven't yet figured that out.
But you're the only person who's really described that feeling. I thought I was alone there.
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regna
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Date: 2013-12-22 11:20 pm (UTC)Wow, this sounds familiar. I've talked some about my dad raising me essentially as male because he wanted a son, not a daughter. I have reactions that are, the way you're treating me is not okay because it's not okay to treat ANYONE that way (social/political) and then the, wait why the fuck are you considering me this way? feelings. Made all the more complicated because I really don't know if that's actually how I feel about my gender or if it's an ingrained reaction because of how I was raised; at this point, I haven't yet figured that out.
But you're the only person who's really described that feeling. I thought I was alone there.