This morning was the second morning running I had to divert from breakfast etc to wash blood out of bedlinen. It has been A While since this was last an issue; I can but assume it's something about sitting-up-in-bed-to-have-hair-brushed (as distinct from "remain horizontal until going directly to the bathroom") that's the problem, which is Somewhat Frustrating.
I am reading a book on psychosomatic illness, by Suzanne O'Sullivan, that I think I was pointed at by Gavin Francis' Adventures in Human Being (though it might have been Recovery, which I finished the day I borrowed the latter; I placed the hold on It's All in Your Head that same day). It is careful and nuanced and interesting and talks frankly about her own fallibility; it's prompting a lot of thinking about my own illnesses; it's a fascinating sideways insight into culture around psychosomatic illness and patient complaints at the NHNN, which is where my headache clinic is; and also I am developing a cold sore, which only happens when I am feeling Particularly Stressed, which suggests that I am finding the whole experience Somewhat Stressful. (I'd say it seems a little on the nose, but it's not, it's in the corner of my mouth.) (One has to laugh.)
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Date: 2024-03-28 11:17 am (UTC)Yeah, no wonder. I think reading that book is either very brave of you or negstimming, I can't tell which from here.
(I'd say it seems a little on the nose, but it's not, it's in the corner of my mouth.) (One has to laugh.)
Indeed.
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Date: 2024-03-29 08:17 am (UTC)Also remembering when immediately on waking up I knew I had to run to the bathroom BEFORE doing anything like sitting upright in bed or even moving too much incautiously.. around the same time I needed the bathroom within exactly 60 minutes of the previous visit (during the hours of body being roughly vertical), because after 65 minutes all bets were off no matter which sanitary product combo I was using at the time. A&E guy refused to believe it was hourly when I showed up dizzy from blood loss in 2019. So glad I am never going back there again.