[exercising patience] ... doing something right

[kaberett]

Watch informs me that I just got up into (and then sustained) my "vigorous activity" heartrate zone while doing Pilates for possibly the first time ever? Which is very gratifying external validation of Gosh I Felt Like I Was Working Hard There, Gosh I Was Definitely Using Muscles I Do Not Normally Engage That Much.

(I also went through the entire damn sequence (of my current standard) much faster than usual, but that was mostly because I managed to not stall on executive function so badly when moving on to the next exercise -- which probably had something to do with the intensity of the exercise...)

I continue some mixture of "sad" and "cross" about all of the things I am learning about my body, and that I am learning to do with my body, and how much I'm enjoying it, specifically because I was absolutely thrilled when PE was no longer something I had to do. There were so many things I could have learned about my body, and how it works, and what non-standard difficulties it has, in lessons called "physical education", and they'd have done me so much more good than learning the rules of hockey. I want to be articulate about this but that is not a job for tonight; what I am actually going to do tonight is see if the endorphins can't get me to sleep in finite time.

Comments

[doseybat]

Solidarity sad angry over here while beginning to think about body and yoga properly only in my 40s.

Therapist is apparently writing a paper on how the US education system sees PE as an "equaliser" not realising the effective exclusion of queer kids and other groups.

[horselizard]

go you! / very relatable >:( <3