I am PICKING UP MY ROCKS from a partner institution tomorrow
these are The Last Rocks Of The PhD
I have 'til end-December to Measure All The Rocks
... which is a bit stressful because What If The Very Expensive Vacuum Leak Doesn't Cooperate
which is something I can't really schedule for, which means I can't make concrete plans for how quickly I'll get through stuff
not least because I've only got enough beakers for 2x sets of (=20) ready-to-analyse samples
and while I am only picking up ~26 samples, a bunch of those I will effectively need to analyse twice, for Reasons
so I can't even go "right let's get all the chemistry done and then blitz the analysis", I gotta actually swap back and forth between them, and if the mass spec isn't behaving then I gotta keep trying mass spec before I can do more chemistry
which would be less stressful if it hadn't taken me four multi-day sessions to get any data at ALL off the last sample set I was trying to measure
and then once I've done that I have? to finish? writing the PhD?
and I'm "only" going to have five chapters (introduction, three data chapters, conclusion), which I am currently feeling Inadequate about because the thesis I'm reading as background on these rocks has eight (EIGHT!!!) (8!!!!!!) chapters
and by the way I'm having a prolonged mental health crash for indeterminate reasons of therefore uncertain duration AND I'm still sleeping all the time FOR reasons that are still unclear
...
so if I am being Even More Dilatory Than Usual in responses/engagement/etc, it's not that I don't care, it's just that
*waves*
aaaaaaaaah?
oh right and weekend after next I'm going on An Holiday at which I need to be able to give Two Talks and, like, they're SKETCHED and IN MY HEAD but. um. I should probably make slides. and have a slightly clearer idea of what in the hell I want to say.
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