WAIT I HAD MORE FEELINGS ABOUT ELEMENTARY

[kaberett]

• Sherlock learned this particular brand of protectiveness [re Kitty] specifically from Joan, who lied to him about his father having agreed to continue paying her
  
• Sherlock is unambiguously mentally ill, quite apart from whether or not he's autistic (PTSD oooooh yeah this boy is a survivor)
  
• he gets to be two things, both at once: to Gregson he's just the asshole genius, but for Kitty and Joan and Mycroft and even Moriarty he is something else
  
• how much is it fucking him up that Moriarty is Irene, and vice versa? The person he fell in love with didn't order apparently indiscriminate murders, didn't make choices he considers horrific; and yet she begins to choose in ways that he would prefer, in spite of it all
  
• he is so lucky to have so many people around him to call him on his bullshit, in different ways and degrees
  
• he is trying to make overtures of friendship to Gregson /still/ (analysis of mid-town traffic patterns, anyone?) and I think he's /still/ hurt & confused that Gregson has 0 interest (he wants to fix things and he DOESN'T KNOW HOW)
  
• I feel about Kitty a lot of the same ways I feel about Buffy, I think, except that this time I'm alert to what's going on, and this time I trust the writers rather more (for all I don't dare relax into that trust, because of how much I risk by so doing; but isn't that the point, that I want to learn how to take on those greater risks? I am thinking and thinking about this: I need to work out how on earth to reinforce my earthquakes-in-waiting, to make myself stronger enough that I can withstand blows there, too, without shattering)