(I mean honestly: this facet of him breaks my heart. BREAKS it. And is in some ways one of the most discouraging things I ever found out, because of how hard it is to have read Night and then know that he just . . . didn't see what was going on right there. And I know how that works, and why, and even have deep compassion for the fact that I'm honestly sure his psyche was so primed in certain ways that it just couldn't GO there but it's also . . .it's incredibly sad, and one of the things that makes me go " . . . how the fuck can we even . . . figure this shit out, as a species.")

(But it just also means . . . okay, so here is another level of human interaction and stuff where we just have to . . . always be thinking. And a lesson about our failings and potential failings as humans and illustration of the challenges we have.)

(And sometimes after thinking these things I have to go to bed and pretend LA LA LA I JUST . . . HAVE STUFF TO DO LOOK A CLICKY GAME for a week or so because otherwise we are in dangerous thought territory. *sigh*)