I've been trained/progamed to present as NeuroTypical so much that it's my default setting when I'm around people. I have to sometimes remind myself that it's a big part of my I find being around people is exhusting. For me the training/programming was a lot about being socialised as a girl and the expectations of "a good little [church] minister's kid". So it's a lot about trying to make sure the other person/people are comfortable and putting their comfort ahead of mine. Because it's my default setting when I am acting in a more obviously autistic way it's when I'm stressed/overwhelmed/dealing with difficult physical or emotional stuff - which encourages the people around me to see me being more obviously autistic as being a problem/warning sign ...
It really bothers me when NT people think "you don't seem autistic to me"/"I wouldn't have known you had am autism spectrum diagnosis" is a compliment - and part of that is because they have no idea of how hard I've been working to accommodate them (and they are obviously not going to put the effort in to accommodating my autism)
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I've been trained/progamed to present as NeuroTypical so much that it's my default setting when I'm around people. I have to sometimes remind myself that it's a big part of my I find being around people is exhusting. For me the training/programming was a lot about being socialised as a girl and the expectations of "a good little [church] minister's kid". So it's a lot about trying to make sure the other person/people are comfortable and putting their comfort ahead of mine.
Because it's my default setting when I am acting in a more obviously autistic way it's when I'm stressed/overwhelmed/dealing with difficult physical or emotional stuff - which encourages the people around me to see me being more obviously autistic as being a problem/warning sign ...
It really bothers me when NT people think "you don't seem autistic to me"/"I wouldn't have known you had am autism spectrum diagnosis" is a compliment - and part of that is because they have no idea of how hard I've been working to accommodate them (and they are obviously not going to put the effort in to accommodating my autism)