Why would you need to be open to criticism of people freaking out because you at first appeared to altistic (that's non-autistic, right?) but then it turns out you are, in fact, autistic? Is that what I read? It seems like you shouldn't have to apologize for being YOU, especially not when you're tired or overwhelmed. That's just part of the package deal, and others being upset or offended because you're not what THEY expected at first is THEIR problem. (I mean, as long as you aren't running around breaking grievous social norms, which I don't think you do.)

I do get the awesomeness that is being able to let go and communicate in ways that your brain says is natural and that others also find natural. I experience something very similar in the bipolar community (especially during a manic flush.) The actual language and syntax changes in the grips of an episode and it can really disturb normal people. But other bipolar crazies like me? They get it and I don't have to stumble over explaining HOW I'm saying something. I really appreciate that in those circles.

Your observation about gaming people was interesting. Like, gaming as in manipulating, right? And I can see how speaking/acting from an abuse place inside of yourself (like PTSD episode or trigger or whatever) MIGHT be seen as gaming, but again, I really feel that's just people who don't know or don't care that abuse and whatnot literally changes your brain.

But maybe you are onto something. What do you mean, like how does that sort of thing look like gaming???