kaberett: Overlaid Mars & Venus symbols, with Swiss Army knife tools at other positions around the central circle. (Default)
Hello! You are a person! You are probably lovely! I like people!

This journal ends up being a bit of a mix of Srs Business (rants; things I've learned from counselling; &c), fannish & scientific joy, linkspams, poetry, & misc life updates. I tag fairly compulsively, though not always helpfully; I use content notes; I have written up a cast of characters; I aim to maintain this as a safer space, and appreciate (but do not expect!) call-outs when I mess up.

I like it if you introduce yourself when you subscribe, but it's definitely not required. Probably 30% of this journal is access-locked; I give access very readily. Fanworks are always public; AO3 is the canonical place to find my list of works. I'm very happy for you to link to anything that's public, and I'll be even happier if you let me know you're doing it. :-)


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kaberett: Euphorbia cf. serrata, green crown of leaves/flowers central to image. (spurge)
I really struggle with short fiction, particularly in anthologies. I'm averse to getting started and I have to make myself pick them back up, even if I know I like the authors, even though I know I frequently really like several pieces in any given anthology.

It's about task-switching, isn't it. Every new short story is a new task, with new information and names and mechanics to keep track of, and anthologies condense those down, and I never have time to settle in and stop doing the work of understanding all of the surface (in order to understand the innards). And that's why even individual shorts by authors I know I adore are difficult (if they're out-universe to novels).

It's nice to know why, at least.


Jul. 25th, 2015 11:49 am
kaberett: A photograph of a dark-grey train with white cogs painted on the side, with a bit of station roof visible above. (trains)


Jul. 21st, 2015 10:36 pm
kaberett: Overlaid Mars & Venus symbols, with Swiss Army knife tools at other positions around the central circle. (Default)
Folk, I've just caught up with the introductions meme. Given how long it's taken me I don't think I've really got the cope to invite further participation that requires action on my part, but by all means go introduce yourselves to each other, and if you didn't play this time I will doubtless be doing another. <3
kaberett: Overlaid Mars & Venus symbols, with Swiss Army knife tools at other positions around the central circle. (Default)
VOLCANO SHARKS (actually that should maybe go in [community profile] capslock_dreamwidth as well, anyone feel like sorting that out for me)

10 things I wish I'd known about gaslighting. Quotation. )

[personal profile] happydork posted a thing about introversion, social anxiety, social skills, and change that made me feel very soothed and much calmer about some of the stuff I do. Hurrah paradigms that help.

Speaking of things that soothe me, [personal profile] recessional has posted another small commentfic about Bucky (in your blue-eyed boys-verse, which is actual MCU canon as far as I'm concerned), about trauma and safety and sleep and hypervigilance and how astonishing the people around you can be, in embodying traits and behaviours and beliefs you hadn't realised were possible but want to fold into yourself.
kaberett: a watercolour painting of an oak leaf floating on calm water (leaf-on-water)
(details on fb, possibly to be copied here if y'all are interested, in tl;dr trigger warnings suicide, domestic violence, abuse, coercion, enabling of all of the above, plus bonus sexual harrassment.)

-- but I am on a BUS to OXFORD where I will be fed and looked after, and there are half-hourly buses from London to Oxford at this time of night so it's easy to decide I'm showing up very early in the morning as opposed to reasonably early in the morning, and I've got a pair of seats to myself, and I'm making progress on the introductions meme--

-- and what I'm actually pondering, again, is how astonished I am by the concept of intensity, by myself as intense. I've spent so much time depressed, so much time with anhedonia, with everything muted and grey (i am out here studying stones/trying to learn to be less alive/using all of my will/to hold very still/still even on the inside) that I'm startled every time I realise that pretty much every single person who has met me since I started anti-depressants does think of me that way, saturated colours and vibrancy and fierceness without viciousness, or at least without viciousness as a necessary component. Seeing myself through your eyes is a gift; on nights like this knowing that it is a truth of my existence helps me settle, reminds me what I want to be and that I can do it, reminds me that I am capable. Thank you.

Bored now.

Jul. 16th, 2015 11:30 pm
kaberett: Chibi Zuko stands on a tiny rock dinosaur spouting water (zuko-dinosaur)
Any advice on getting actual bootable install media for Debian, for 64-bit hardware with UEFI? In particular I've ended up with a Toshiba Portege via the magic of Student Finance England, and getting the sodding thing to dual-boot Windows 8.1 with anything useful is proving Rather More Challenging Than Usual.
  • I've definitely got boot priorities set up right (though why the hell this machine is offering me the opportunity to boot from floppy I'm not sure)
  • I've disabled secure boot (and even bloody tried with onboard LAN disabled via BIOS, which bits of the internet suggested might help but didn't)
  • attempts to boot from flash drives with Debian images on gives me a second or so of a black screen with a white underscore in the top left per cursor, after which I'm dumped back to the Toshiba startup screen and boot into Windows
  • I've triple-checked I've got 64-bit images; I'm not using UNetbootin because it doesn't play nice with UEFI at least some of the time; I've tried both stable & testing, and I've also tried a couple of Ubuntu images with similar results
  • I've tried all the USB ports, yes, all of them
  • I can't just wipe the Windows partition; there's software on here I want/need to be able to use that's Windows-only.

Most of the reports of similar issues I'm finding online at least manage to get as far as GRUB. Thoughts?
kaberett: A pomegranate, with eyes and mouth drawn onto masking tape and applied (pomegranate)
My housemate has taken to making grilled lemonade and it's fantastic. Copying the recipe here for posterity, etc.

Read more... )
kaberett: Overlaid Mars & Venus symbols, with Swiss Army knife tools at other positions around the central circle. (Default)
  • go to Kew. Always. Let me know if you want me to get you (and a third party!) into Kew for free.
  • the Barbara Hepworth exhibit at Tate Britain (until 25th October)
  • probably a general wander around the Tate Modern? I'm increasingly clearly Into modern sculpture and am trying to clarify my tastes further
  • I am caving and buying myself a membership to the Natural History Museum; anyone want to be got in to any of the exhibits there? (Probably going to see the Natural Wildlife Photographer of the Year exhibit - until 31st August)
  • ... which means I'm also going to want to go see the Coral Reefs exhibit.
  • and I'm going to see Much Ado at the Globe on the 7th of September with [personal profile] me_and (if anyone wants to join in groundling-ing)

Holler if interested in joining in on any of those :-)
kaberett: a patch of sunlight on the carpet, shaped like a slightly wonky heart (light hearted)
[personal profile] me_and, also referred to herein as facesfriend, is tentatively stepping back into using DW as a social network, on the grounds that having committed enough patches to make a [site community profile] dw_news post he might want to shake the dust off his account. He's techy (to nobody's surprise, um), he reads spec fic (I'm hoping to persuade him to post about the various books I just foisted onto him), he is into systems and logistics in a way that I find utterly captivating but leads D to describe him as My Boring Dudefriend With Whom I Boring, and he's kind and thoughtful and generous with his time. He does LARP (about which I know nothing), can be very entertainingly snide and deadpan if encouraged but is careful to keep it away from people who don't like it, and is a singlet who picked his handle lo these many years ago for entirely unrelated reasons unaware of what the naming convention implies (if this clause is opaque to you then the meaning's largely irrelevant).

Or, to put it another way, I think it's time for an introductions meme.
If you would like to, please comment to this post, and I'll introduce you to everybody else by giving a reason why I think you're great. Some people I know better than others, so I can't promise all my introductions will exactly encapsulate why someone might want to get to know you. You're also welcome to comment to someone else's thread and ask for a specific introduction to that person; I know some people are more confident than others about just jumping in and introducing themselves to a stranger. I am also happy to matchmake if you would like that; ask me for a recommendation of a personal journal and/or community from my circles.

And of course, feel free to repost this game in your own journal, if you think it would be a good way to make connections between some of your people. I think this could go quite well if it spreads a few hops away from here, but also worth doing even if no-one picks it up.

Please do play if you'd like to; if you want to PM me to ask permission and encouragement I will gladly dispense same. <3


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